I am not exactly sure what "food for thought" is actually supposed to mean but thats the only thing I could think of for the title of this post.
This past week was "Seek Week" at Rock Harbor, the church I attend, and as part of that they suggested doing a fast. I have never fasted before, mainly because I have never had the discipline to do so. I would start and say "ok I am going to fast...." and then when I got hungry I would make an excuse as to why I had to eat. So this week I decided to take the plunge and actually fast. So for 4 days I was on nothing but water. I wasn't really prepared for the side affects of not eating, I was tired and my thoughts were constantly on what I was going to eat when I was done. I was tempted SO many times to give up because of how tired and yucky I was feeling but thankfully with some encouragement and a whole lot of help from God I made it through the 4 days. Now I don't think that I was really prepared for this fast and I wish that I had taken more time out of my day to spend with God but I mainly slept =) I think though that it wasn't a complete failure, nothing ever is when God is involved. It did open my eyes to a few things that I am in need of work and I am hoping that I will continue to grow in Him and seek his guidance (it took me about 5 minutes to remember how to spell that... oops).
Its been about a year or so since I have been really excited/happy with where I am and where I am going. I thought that this last week was the perfect time to revitalize my relationship with God because I didn't want the giving up food to be about weight loss, I decided to also give up exercising which would probably not have been possible anyways considering I barely made it to work each night and I also know that not eating is not productive when trying to lose weight so this was not about weight loss which in the past has been an incentive for me to fast and that is probably why I've never been able to do it in the past. Ok and by the way when you don't eat your breath smells so I chewed Big Red gum but now I think my tongue is messed up. Does that happen to anyone else when they chew cinnamon gum? Oh and do you want to know how I ended my fast? Well I had a banana and granola bar around 5AM at work because that was my last break time and thats when I decided I was done but then AFTER work I went to breakfast with a coworker and we went to Pancake House and for some reason I had been looking forward to Chocolate Chip Pancakes the WHOLE week... besides all the other food I craved which was every type of food imaginable but it wasn't on their online menu but it WAS on there menu when we got there. HOORAY! So I had corned beef hash and eggs and they came with pancakes and I upgraded to chocolate chip pancakes... Probably not the smartest way to end a fast and I think right now 8 hours later I can't tell if my stomach hurts from the big breakfast or I need to eat again. So I am just drinking water and will hopefully be going for a run this evening to celebrate.
Umm I don't think I put much about what I learned but just trust me that I learned things and it was a good thing. I think if I ever get called to do another one it will be a juice and water fast so that my energy level doesn't drop so much. But anyways I am so excited about what God has in store for me I can't sleep either that or it was the 4 cups of coffee at breakfast that are keeping me awake I am thinking its my excitement though.
I think I am done posting for today, I will someday realize I need to structure my posts but for now they will be helter skelter and only somewhat make sense.
God cannot give us a happiness and peace apart from Himself, because it is not there. There is no such thing.
C. S. Lewis
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Beautiful Beautiful by Francesca Battistille